I’m excited about all this stuff happening for LaughDraft and I’m simultaneously frustrated.
This is exciting because:
- Its’ the first time we perform at Comedy Bar;
- It’s the first time Humber contributes to our troupe (Free Food, anybody?);
- We’re performing ALL NEW sketches;
- It’s Halloween!
- One of my sketches got in;
- We might make some money if enough people come, which will help us with future projects, etc.
We were also selected as the one troupe from Humber to be submitted into the Toronto Sketch Comedy Festival (which my class friends and colleagues are quick to point out is only due to the fact that we are currently the only performing-sketch troupe in the program so far this year. To which I say: Default performance in SketchFest is better than no performance at all.)
- Two of the Kids in the Hall are performing in this festival. OMG!;
- Other AMAZING sketch troupes are performing in this festival;
- Our program coordinator at Humber, Andrew Clark, likes us enough to recommend us to the organizers;
- We get to showcase 15 minutes of our best material to date (none of which was written by me… sigh.);
- We get unlimited access to see all the shows in the festival;
- Vest of Friends got to do it last year, and this year they might make it to Just For Laughs… just saying…;
For everything there is to be excited about, it’s difficult because there are always some people ready to downplay the achievement, however meager it may be in our just-beginning careers and for what purpose? I simply do not understand. Are they still in that “it’s cool to be apathetic” stage? Do they simply not want to be a part of this but feel obligated to stay on? But again, for what reason? I just don’t get it.
I wonder if it’s to do with the fact that I’m older. Or that apathy has naver been in my nature. I crave DOING. I crave things to give a shit about! Maybe it’s relative to what you put in. I put a lot into LaughDraft, creatively and professionally. I do a lot of the organizational aspects of it, I try to keep our meetings on track. I often meet with Andrew to discuss Humber’s involvement and have done since the very beginning. Because of that, I expect the same enthusiasm from all the others. Here’s the problem. It’s not them. It’s me. Maybe I just have unrealistically high expectations. When something excites me, I expect it to excite the others in the group. And it does some. And others not.
And who cares, at the end of the day? It’s no big deal. But I do. That’s the problem.